crazy thoughts and crazy deeds. Its a funny feeling the past week. Ya know Ive been through my fair share of shit in my life. But never until last week have I ever reached a point where I felt like this.
That blinding flash and then the world went dark. I went numb. How do you recover from that? I heard the crack. I felt my soul and spirit break. I have a hard time showing affection now. Cant handle being around groups of people.
Cant say I love you. I feel frozen. A step out of time. Things are fine with him.... now. We joke, play, have sex....all of that....but its still off. Somethings missing from me. I cant feel anything really. Its a fog... a blur in my head.
How do I go back. I would have given anything that day to have him take it back...and when he did. I froze. GOt cold. dont know what to do now.
The worst part about all this might just be...that Im liking the cold numb feeling. its scary
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