ramblings

Please just let me go. Is it so hard to ask. Just leave me be. let me go. say the truth. Why is it that no one can be real? Theres always something to hide. Guess what. You always get caught. No matter how sneaky you think you are. You always slip up somewhere. somehow. You do it way too much. Why? Im silly for how I feel. im too much. I snuggle too much. I care too much I fucking love too much. Well guess what. It's done. Yes I know Im depressed. I fucking get it loud and clear. So just fuck off. You cant fix me. You cant make me stronger. And somewhere in my heart cries you cant love me. If you did you would do something to make it better. But no...it just gets worse. I never said I was perfect. I never claimed to be. You thought I was better than this. Sorry thats what you get. Everyone can fuck off now. I cant handle it anymore. Cant handle caring about what other people want...what they think. I dont want to love anyone anymore. I wish I didnt have to feel anything at all. Wouldnt it be easier...simpler....that creeping voice saying my dad had the right idea....or the other one that says just screw it. leave it all behind and run.