I hate what you did to me. You made my mind and emotions a battlefield. You used my body as your own personal punching bag...or caged animal. Since usually it was only a threat...how far will to push before that fist doesnt just raise anymore? How many more times could I cry out to you to just love me....for me. ANd put me ahead of any other girls.
It destroyed something in me....almost completly. It still troubles me sometimes though....That still small voice that has echoed for years in my head. .....am I enough?
Thats something that never really goes away, isnt it? A part of me so lost....even now....that I cant seem to get things quiet right.
The fears, uncertanties, wondering. Not wanting to go back to that silence again. How is it that its so easy to crush things....but try to build them back seems damn near impossible sometimes.
Please dont be.....such a simple thing for me to ask of him....something I shouldnt have to ask....I shouldnt have to fear.....
please dont be like all of them.
Mean it when you say my past doesnt matter, mean it when you say you love me even as flawed as I am. Mean it when you call me velcro with that look in your eyes.
So simple....so small request...please dont
Lol then the song pops into my head...
Please dont say I love you...those words touch me way too deeply.....
Jewel- Near you always
That...is now.....
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