Big plans

I was thinking this morning....How I need to do something about my lack of confidence. I know exactally what I need to do to regain it. But those first few steps are terrifyig. First on my list is to start being immaculate. Keeping everything straight and in order. I have plenty of time to do it. My next step is exercise....I know if I push myself I can get to the weight I have always wanted. Then my piercings and tattoo. Maybe some new clothes. Go out just to have some down time. I know I can do that. For me.


So isnt it so funny that I could never do that for them! I couldnt give space...couldnt handle myself if I went out...always that fear loomed....and for no better reason than I did not give myself enough value.

I pray that ends today. Big plans floating around this head right now. I just pray I follow through on them. God itd be so nice to not be stuck in fear so much.