What is it that always leaves the human heart wanting more? That leaves it desperate to forget the pain of the past. Or maybe I'm just one of the unlucky few. Who cant let go...just hit a switch and make the past stay where it belongs. But the insecurities are never far away. The fear is always lurking in the back of my mind.
For me, its a vicious scar.
Torn to the very fabric of my being.
It gets easier now though. To seperate myself from my emotions.
I can be content. Just comfortable with the continuity of having you.
But never expecting anything else.
Is that what loves come to?
Never even daring to dream, you could truly be the one to end the pain.
The fear and confusion, self doubt, especially anger and tears.
So close, yet we seem so far away sometimes.
Its getting easier with you. And its weird. Ive never been able to close myself down like this before. Not with anyone. But with you....I am starting to have my moments. It's easier now.
Would that scare you to know, I wonder?
This letter doesnt really have a purpose. I love you, being with you has made me so happy. I guess that goes back to the original statement. Why does the human heart always want more? Why cant I be happy with the time I get. The attention I do get. And not wish you would go that one step further....at least once in awhile, be out of the ordinary. I like romance too. I deserve it. It was a plesant dream for a moment. Now back to our lives. Our goofball, troublemaking, mostly great lives. I just had to some way voice this feeling.
For all that you have given me....all that you have done....and especially all that you are. Thank you. I am so happy to have you in my life.
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