Heres a suggestion

If youre not in the mood to rough house like we usually do.

A. Dont start it. and

B. if you dont want to be pinned ya could always just stop moving and say seriously not in the mood. Instead of leaving a welt from pinching me :( (and you say thats all you could do to get me off. I could think of a few different ways)

ummm...hello hypocrit. Dont pin me then. Dont flick me, dont try to rough house.....if you cant do it without getting frustrated the very few and far between times i get the best of you. Then dont do it at all. Dont get mad at me for not listening when you say stop when you keep flicking still. Dont get mad at me for not listening when you dont either.

stop being so damn stubborn competitive and hypocritical. >( and hey....saying sorry goes a lot farther than getting defensive.

Hi pissy pants...meet angry housewife!!!!

I know you are stressed and wound tight right now....but lets try not taking it out on the person who does anything and everything for you. Theres an idea.

Fade away

In my head I saw stars, I thought my dreams had come true.

But those are just wishful fantasies, of a girl I thought I knew.



Wake to the thunderstorm rage,

another rainy day.

wake to the age old heartach and fear,

that birthed here long ago.



Kalidascope thoughts,

adrift in my head,

chipping away at my soul.



you hear the dying sounds of hopes last breath,

a cold chill settles in.

How to prepare a heart...for the long bitter winter ahead.

When a little piece dies everyday...

blah

A persons spirit can bend only so many times before it breaks.....and when it breaks it shatters.

A body can only take so much stress before it begins to not work right...from the head to the stomach...and everything else included.




~How to mend a broken spirit, how to heal those broken wings.
Desperatly trying to hold on, to the innocence of dreams~

unsent letter

What is it that always leaves the human heart wanting more? That leaves it desperate to forget the pain of the past. Or maybe I'm just one of the unlucky few. Who cant let go...just hit a switch and make the past stay where it belongs. But the insecurities are never far away. The fear is always lurking in the back of my mind.

For me, its a vicious scar.
Torn to the very fabric of my being.
It gets easier now though. To seperate myself from my emotions.
I can be content. Just comfortable with the continuity of having you.
But never expecting anything else.

Is that what loves come to?
Never even daring to dream, you could truly be the one to end the pain.
The fear and confusion, self doubt, especially anger and tears.
So close, yet we seem so far away sometimes.

Its getting easier with you. And its weird. Ive never been able to close myself down like this before. Not with anyone. But with you....I am starting to have my moments. It's easier now.

Would that scare you to know, I wonder?

This letter doesnt really have a purpose. I love you, being with you has made me so happy. I guess that goes back to the original statement. Why does the human heart always want more? Why cant I be happy with the time I get. The attention I do get. And not wish you would go that one step further....at least once in awhile, be out of the ordinary. I like romance too. I deserve it. It was a plesant dream for a moment. Now back to our lives. Our goofball, troublemaking, mostly great lives. I just had to some way voice this feeling.

For all that you have given me....all that you have done....and especially all that you are. Thank you. I am so happy to have you in my life.

thoughts

My heart breaks some days...wondering, aching to know if this is forever after. An icy coldness settles in. Im so exhausted of wondering...of not knowing where I stand....I wish...I dream....Im lost somewhere.....a frightened heart hiding in the dark...

To hope is to die a little each day your dream does not come true. To hope is a cruel joke leaving you hanging on by a thread when everything screams let go. Do I dare to hope? DO I dare to dream? Wishing I could just let go....forget everything

strange thoughts

I am desperate.....I wish so badly I could take her and run far away sometimes. Away from everyone. I wish it could be just me and her off in some distant life. Not needing anyone...but eachother.

I am a cruel mother for even having that thought in a way. But to dream of a life without heartbreak for her or me is nice. I would never let her down. I am the one person in her life how would do anything and everything for that lil girl. She is my world.

This relationship lately is petrifying. I cant get my head around anything anymore. I cry when I see weddings. I cry over anything sweet and sappy and romantic lately. I dream of it....but on the other hand. He could crush our souls if hes not careful.

Is love truly worth the risk? I ask myself that everyday lately. It would be a bold move indeed. To up and leave everything and everyone behind. Do I have it in me to live that kind of life?

Would I want to?

These are certantily strange times. Would you even miss us?

Maybe....it should be just me...