A friendship lost

I have thought about you quiet a bit the past months. I wonder how you are...how life has been treating you. Mostly I wonder why you left with no word. I sent you an email....with a message that was strange...and probably came off way wrong. For that I am sorry. I never meant to hurt you. TO hurt our friendship.

I was angry. Not at you...but at myself. And for some stupid reason I took it out on you. And lost you in the process.

Or is it that life has finally gone the way you hoped for you? If that is so, then i can not be hurt by this. I must be happy for you.

But it does hurt. same as it always does when I lose someone. Such a big part of my life...more than you realized....so it hurts when its over. A part of me I will never get back.

I knew it would happen. I told you...it was only a matter of time before it did. It just didnt happen as soon as I had expected. But in the end...it happened.

I wish you the best in life...in love...in everything. I wish you the best and say this last thing. Thank you. For every second you gave me. I wish those seconds could have lasted a lifetime. But thank you just the same. You are amazing in so many ways. And touched my heart so very much.

I will continue to miss you. As always. And here and there probably shed another tear at a friendship lost. Especially one as special as this.